As he looks out the window onto the darkness the gravity of his day sinks in
It’s all he can do to not to just walk out the door now, and never look back
Fade into the darkness
The only reason he doesn’t is because he isn’t one to give up
The days are hard and he doesn’t open up to anyone due to a fear
The fear of others
he doesn’t open up due to a vulnerability, his archillies heel
He uses humor as a way to hide deeper feelings
Ones of being scared and alone in the world
He’s just a sad clown
But no one would laugh at a clown with his make-up running
So he tries to make the most of everyday
He doesn’t know where he is in life and doubts he will
So as he continues his gaze out the window one by one he sees the other lights go out
The others laying their heads down to sleep once again
He sits up his mind too active to sleep, yet he’s too mentally and physically tired to understand it
The dreams of tomorrow postponed by the insomnia of today
